This is me expressing my hate at the world at this current point in time *feel the burning hate* especially at Mariken. The only thing I am happy about right now is seeing Gema in August. I'm pissed that she would talk to me like that like my opinion is worth sweet stuff all. I'm also annoyed that I haven't seen her since that boy was down here and she only saw me because she wanted to meet him. I'm annoyed she refuses to make an effort to see me even though we are "friends". Yeah f***king right!! So I told her that maybe our split should be permanent and she say ok. So thats where I am. Prehaps that should have gone in my LJ... oh well

I went to OUSA meeting today and voted against UMAT.  Which is why Mariken is being a nong - they done a head count before the motion to elect a queer reprentative to the executive was called to order and there wasn't enough students so they had to call the meeting to an end. And she got all upset and here I am thinking there is always next semester. I'm all for us queer folk having representation but she was acting like I was the enemey and I wasn't going to have a bar of it. Hmm I just went downstairs to get my cellphone and she'd apologised.

I hope Gema comes online tonight (shes my twin sister) I've finally decided to tell her about my thoughts that I've been having over the past year.

I just found out how to tell AVG not to look for a dialup connection when updating... time for new updates and a virus scan! It hasn't had any since 17.9.2007 T_T

I had a look at the Massey 1st year papers for BMedLabSci and wow - tonnes of maths!! Like, you do a WHOLE maths paper, a comunications paper... I think I might stick with Otago. In your first year you do 2 Human Biology Papers (HUBS 191 & 192) 1 Chemistry paper (CHEM 191), 1 Physics Paper (PHSI 191), 1 Cell Biology paper (CELS 191), 1 Biochemistry paper (BIOC 192) and one epidemology paper (HEAL 192) to me, otago seems to have more relevant papers. You can also choose 1 other paper in 2nd if you want for interest. At Massey:
199.155 Communication in the Sciences, 122.102 Biochemistry of Cells, 123.101 Chemistry and Living Systems, 161.130 Biometrics & 162.101 Biology of Cells are compulsory (http://medlab-school.massey.ac.nz/course_bmlsc.html) . It's interesting how the only 2 Universities in NZ that offer this degree differ.

I hate walking all over the friggen university to find a friggen computer *makes annoyed sound* anywho, now that I've found one in St. David... I shall bear to you my news for the past few days.

A motion is before the OUSA about UMAT and how there isn't any evidance that it dosn't discriminate. The AGM is tommrrow at 1pm and I'm intending to go, means I have to go to 12pm physics but I think it will be good. I hope the University scraps UMAT because 1) the $160 Australian dollars it costs (It's ended up costing me more than $200 New Zealand and It's put me that much more in debt that my lovely Mum has offered to pay) 2) it's just a personality test. There is other tests that the University administers right here and it would be a lot more cost effective to students to have something run here than something in Australia.

I don't come from a very privleged background (solo mum trying to raise her 2 kids on the DPB and what not) so there was never much money and unless you actually plan about 2years ahead and you know what you have to fork out for then you're all good, other wise to your run-of-the-mill student it's a rather big surprise. I think it was pretty discriminatory in that respect because if you can't take the test then you can't get into Medicine/Medical Labratory Science/Physiotherapy/Dentistry. Only leaves Pharmacy then.

Rant on UMAT over

I've started studying for exams, under a month to go *sighs* I hope I pass chemistry, other wise I can't get into biochemistry next semester. I'm starting the "I'm to worked up to sleep" phase of exam time. I've downloaded most of the lecture notes onto my 128MB flash drive (I can't find my 1GB one and it pissing me off, it had lecture audio on it) at this stage I'm going to be applying for MedLabSci, and if I don't get in I'm debating about just giving up and moving back home and going to either Massey or Victoria. Not really much keeping me down here I don't really have any friends down here. The people in my course are fucking snobs. If you're not in their hall or really in any hall they don't want to know you.

I've made an appointment for 2.30pm on Thursday so see a teaching fellow about the Hardy-Weinberg equalibrium. That is proberly the only thing in genetics I have absoultely no idea about. Prehaps I will make another one to have modes of inheritance explained. I can normally get the questions right, but I have no idea how or why. It just "looks right".

well off to 5pm chemsitry *sigh*

P.S - I'm so sick of losing my pens/twink/eraser/pencil!!

CELS191=21.5/60 average mark=32/60
CHEM191=12/30=30%
You know there seems to be a trend in this year group with people FAILING. I'm courious to note if it is just this year and if it is, has anything changed from other years or if it isn't what the hell is going on. Most people I've spoken to want to get into medical school and a median mark of that when most people need 70%+ isn't good enough.  I don't know if I'm ever going to get into medical school at this stage. I studied so damn hard for chemistry however, if the unfortunate does happen then I'm going to probably do a BSc in Anatomy or BBMedSci. You know I need to pass chemistry to get into BIOC192 next semester. I'm so annoyed right now it's like I'm trying and it's just not getting me anywhere.

I went to the capping show last night. Was completely awesome! and since yesterday was opening night we had the famous capping battle. Our poor HUBS lectuer had them in all her lectures, she did not look impressed when they came in the 2nd time in 5mins and I've got it all on video. It's pretty shit quality though as it was off my phone.

update I got 7/20 or 35% for my physics exam! Yay me and I was guessing!

I'm thinking twice now about going to Costa Rica. Why? Because of the $450 non-refundable deposit I have to pay. I'm not rich and I still have no job. However, the job is a little bit hard because my workload is through the roof. 13hours per paper per week to get "average grades". Thats 52hours per week then minus the 25hours of class time a week = 27 hours of work per week self-directed learning. I need more than average grades so prehaps add another 2 hours per paper onto that. That is an extra 8 hours per week. Bringing the grand total to 35hours per week. Total spend on school work? 60hours a week. If I get into medical school I have to seek permission from the dean on school in order to have a job anyways. But, I am picking up some extra cash hopefully via helping at a careers fair in the next couple of weeks for about 3 hours that I'm quite stoked with.

We have yet another HUBS terms test in a couple of weeks. The results from both CELS and PHSI aren't back yet. Although I heard that the average mark for the PHSI test was 8/20 which just made me CRACK UP LAUGHING. I think the head of PHSI191 does our ECGs (Exam Coaching Guides) and he said that he wasn't worried because there is still plenty of time before our finals. Prehaps it was a big hint that something needs to be changed. Then you get the freaks who get A+ in every paper which I think it weird. I have things I'm good at (CELS and HUBS) and things I'm not so good at (CHEM and PHSI). Next semester I am doing HEAL192, HUBS192, BIOC192 and RELS101. I'm actually counting on RELS to put my GPA up. I was thinking about it yesterday and I have a feeling that HEAL192 is going to have a lot of statstics in it since it's a epidemology paper.

Oh yeah, the University is thinking about changing to restricted entry which I think is a bloody shit idea. They have a system in place that says if you fail more than half your papers in a year than you get put on academic suspension and offered all sorts of help and if you still don't pass then you're not allowed to enroll in the university for 2 years. I think that idea is great, I got in via mature entry (because I could not be fluffed with my stoopid high school and the people in it for another year. I was quite a headcase around that time) and if I was made to sit a test before entering university I would have not been bothered with it. Knowledge should never ever be restricted.

Going to the Capping Show with Stacey. Sounds awesome fun.

I love my mum! She not only is getting me an electric blanket she is also buying me a colomn heater and helping with UMAT. <3

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Blurg, man this week has just gone WOOSH. Like last Friday seemed like only a few days ago. I've been studying for chemistry like a good girl. Done some of my HUBS SDL booklet (I'm sure that is due soon I should really get cracking) I've looked at my CELS SDL booklet, I actually was at the University on Thursday but I didn't bring my textbook so I couldn't really do much (and if you've seen how huge Biology by Campbell & Reece is, you'd not want to take it any where either) at the moment I'm trying to do a few of my reading tests for Physics. It annoyies me so much that it's only worth like 1% of my whole mark for PHSI191 when there is about 4-7 reading tests of between 5-10 questions each and if they feel extra mean they'll do a couple of conceptual tests & we do that for each friggen topic!
You know I haven't actually written an actual assignment yet? All we get is SDLs. I'm not sure if thats exactly a bad thing.

Air New Zealand had $35 flights from Christchurch to Wellington and I wish I had the money to go because they fit in perfectly with my June16-July7th mid-semester break. But alas I may just ring up eggland (where I used to work) and see if they'd like me to work for those weeks. I really really hated it there but I know they are always short staffed and I know what I'm doing... the pay is alright at $12.50 just before I left in Feburary to start university I was told I was getting a pay rise. Like, 2 weeks before I left. Although I am told that minimum wage has gone up to $12.00 I guess now that the price of the basics has gone up they need to keep giving people a living wage. Which brings me onto my next point.

THE FUCKING STUDENT ALLOWANCE!! I don't qualify and neither does my other flatmate however, one of my flatmates does and is getting $182.42 per week. I'M ONLY STILL GETTING $150 AND IT'S PISSING ME OFF!! When I used to get the allowance I was only getting $167-something. That would make a huge difference if I could get what she is getting. I'm finding it so hard to feed myself these days. I brought a silverbeet the other day because I couldn't remember the last time I had any green leafy vegetables. I may cook sushi tonight though, as I have some short-grain rice and nori. Just need some sausages (I was going to use chicken but it's a bit to expensive) I'm not eating well and I know it. I wish I knew what to each and how much (every week) so that I can have a meal plan and only buy what I friggen need every week. I know like I need vegetables (hence why I brought a silverbeet it tastes great with cheese sauce) Dont I need like 8,000 kJ of energy every day? Oh I also have museli because I love museli. Yum.

I still need to register for UMAT. And have that freaken blood test. I may get tested for insulin intolerance because the website said that I should because most doctors over-look it when diaogonising people with what I have... and there is a history of diabetees. 7.4mmol after 3hrs >_< and I had like no sugar that day (usual for me since I always have lollies stashed away somewhere. Or coke...)

Finally start some body systems after the holidays in HUBS! We are going to start learning about the endcrine system. I mean the musclo-skeletal system was okay but this is what I'm more interested in!

*sigh*

I miss that boy. I sometimes worry that we can't talk... like it's just a physical thing.

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!

I'M GOING TO COSTA RICA FOR THE SUMMER WITH ISV! holy shit man! I'm so excited! I can't even contain myself!! I haven't even been out of NZ. I don't even have a passport... I don't even speak Spanish! Oh well they do offer a 5 day intensive spanish class. Omg this is like the best thing that has ever happened to be. Ever. I shall need to write letters for sponsorship as it costs about $4,000 NZD. Not to mention the flights and the cost of changing my name so that I can have my proper name on my passport. When I was born my mum spelt my name Taina instead of Tania on my birth cert. so I'm going to change it, and I'm also going to add another middle name.

I'm so glad mum is ringing me tonight.

I was planning to relax and do nothing at all but when I realised that my final exams are in early June I decided that it might be adventageous to study. Especially after the train wreck that was my physics exam. I must have guessed about 3/4 of it. I only worked out about 2 questions. I had 5 questions to go at 5mins T_T. Anywho what I need to get done next week is:

1. Write 3 sets of lecture notes for HUBS
2. STUDY STUDY STUDY for my CHEM exam on May 5
3. Find some questions in Urone to do with pressure and flow rate (I knew this would happen but the one thing I'm COMPLETELY lost with in physics is what most of our terms test was on)
4. Summarise this terms lectures onto 1 bit of paper for all lectures.
5. Find relevant questions in textbooks to do with concepts. It sucks because the professor who look our last module only had references to the textbook they used last year and not to the one that was essential this year.
6. Finish the first half of my CELS self-directed learning booklet
7. Complete the first 1/3 of my HUBS self-directed learning booklet

We are allowed study sheets into our physics exam and my got hot chocolate spilt on it about 20mins before the exam started. I knew I was doomed from the beginning.

So, to get all this done I intend to be awake, up and alive before midday so that I can sit down to work before 1pm and then go to what ever time early the next morning. I'm a night person

Only at Otago do you get boys in tutus dancing through your physics lecture

So... my cells exam went wonderfully shit. So my dreams seem to be doomed to die. Ah well, there is other things I'm interested in doing. I finished my first aid course last weekend and loved it. So I think I'm going to love being a (territorial) medic in the army. And if everything does indeed turn to shit, well then I can just do that for a living.

I got 64% (16/25) and I'm really annoyed with myself. Thats only about a C+. I'm aiming to do WAY better on my CELS test this weekend.

Class average? 74%

And now this from Catherine Tate, just for shits and giggles!
"... she gets that he's an alien. She knows she has 2 hearts. Don't want to know what else he's doubled up on... anywhere else"
~ On speaking about her new part on Dr. Who her character will fall for the doctor

Because I am a good student, I am in my favourite C.A.L studying chemistry of all gods-forsaken things on this earth. There is something that I'm have a bit of issues with (when am I not when it comes to chemistry?!) so I'm only wileyPLUS doing some exercises and seeing if I can try to get my head around this thing they call rate law. I'm getting quite serious about studyng and I found this interesting method of studing, which I am going to try out.

In other news, I passed the HSFY english diagnostic which means I don't have to do ENGL126 and I am instead going to take RELS101 a rather interesting paper I think. I was thinking about doing a Politics one, but, I just so happen to be interested in the history of religion and how those belifes came about.

I really should go to my 8am HUBS lectures on a thurs/friday... it's getting really interesting now! Last week we were learning about the nervous system and how an electrial impulse is transmitted down an axon and how the neurotransmitters work in a synapse.

It is almost the holidays.

CELS191 terms test on Saturday! At least I know where the HELL i'm supposed to be going. Not some weird place by the hospital. (My HUBS terms test was in Barnett lecture theature which is IN dunedin public hospital) it's real odd. Anyways, this test is in Castle 2, which I incidentaly have HUBS 3 days a week so I don't have to look around for it before hand.

Wish me luck?