My favourite shops are stationery shops. I also love this time of year - say the last few days before I go back to school. I love getting my books and new pencils and pens and things. It makes me happy.

This year I intend on being so organized! I'm going to get a noticeboard that is half whiteboard along with the MUSA wall planner (I've decided that I like looking at the whole year rather than just 1 month at a time) so I can more effectively organize myself.

Apparently pre-reading IS a good thing to do before class. Luckily - no great big hunking textbooks this year! So I hope we get study guides as I can just read that on the bus at 7am. Oh dear lord the first few weeks of getting on the bus at 7 is going to kill me. I read some interesting things on some "study skills" websites that if you have 2+ classes in a row then read the reading for the last class that you have first. I'm also getting a bigger lab coat and locker if MUSA offers them. Actually, do any of you ex-Massey students know if MUSA does that and if they do, how much they are? I'm also going to put in my time table when I have time to do pre-readings and lecture reviews. I've still got my dictaphone so I can record lectures and I do intend on going to every single one unless I'm sick.

All that being said I'm so excited about starting 2nd year! I'm not liking this heat though.

My mum and step dad are thinking of moving to Christchurch. Should I be feeling as anxious about this as I am now? If they do decide to go (which could happen TONIGHT when I only found out herb was going to scope it out today, last night) things could happen very quickly for me. I'd need to find a new house etc but I don't want to make any comittments until I know for certain. I won't be visiting much - I vowed never to go back to the south island.

I GOT INTO SECOND YEAR!

Well, exams are done and I'm on holiday (apart from Summer School). I'll guess I see you next year yes? With the Student Serials (doesn't quite have ths same ring as Cheesemonger Chronicles does it? Thats the sort of ring I was going for).

God. I hope I get into medlab. St Albert the Great pray for me...

(If it comes up with Blindspott - Mind Dependancy in the music box one more time... I'm going to thow something)

Yep thats lectures over for (ANOTHER) year. Just got my 2 assignments to finish tomorrow to hand them in on Tuesday and then study!

I was flipping through my chemistry text book and then wondered if the neighbours are going to think I'm cooking meth in the garage when I do my chemistry experiments.

Finally get to do 200 level papers next year. 202.371 looks very interesting.

That is all I wish to say.

I'm so tired of people trying to set me up! I'm not interested. Ok? Is that alright with you? This applies mainly to Jessie who firstly thought I was sleeping around because I told her about the time I made a boy sleep on the couch when I stayed at his, then took the ad for a snuggle buddy on my facebook seriously (yeah... I also change my religion, material status, hometown and if I'm feeling adventerous - gender - randomly when ever I feel like a change) and so I rolled with it hyping up the so-called "snuggle buddy". Then I came clean and said that I didn't actually have one to which she promply offered to "set me up with one of the guys from the (Baptist Youth) hostel". Yeah... no thanks. Not interested in anyone does mean exactly that. There is not something "wrong" nor is it something "one of the boys can't fix" (that last one actually made my stomach churn. Gross). To be quite honest the thought of bumping uglies with anyone (male, female or someone who is other) now makes me want to hurl and indeed, the last 2 times someone kissed me has made me want to be physically ill. I don't berate you for thinking/talking about your girl/boyfriend/sex most of the time so don't berate me for not wanting that. My love life does get exceedenling complicated and you know what? I just can't be fucked with the shit. I'm so much better off mentally, physically and espeically emotionally without the complication of a lover. I feel very... liberated. Sorry boys and girls although I am still "mentally-attracted" to you a sexual relationship is just out of the equation. God if I have to put with 4 years of her trying to set me up (as we are both doing BMLS) I'm going to go bananas. The thing is though, is that I don't want to lash out at her (which I'm afraid of doing if I can't get her to understand how/why) because I do actually quite like her. She is very, very amusing and is going to make BMLS class of 2012 very interesting.

Holy wall of text batman! I'm sorry to your eyes for putting through my massive text-wall rant.

I just want so much more from life than partying/getting laid. Someone once told me that makes me a nana. Well if I want something more from life then I'm fine with calling mysef that. I just don't know where this meaning for life is supposed to come from. I don't think I'm having not-even-quarter-life-crisis because I've felt this way since I was at least 16. Does it come from experience? Because I've a lot of friends and family I love dearly and have had AMAZING experiences with, but in the end we're going to die and none of it is going to matter once we do. I guess the question I'm trying to ask is - where is the meaning for this life that matters in the next?

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University is going well, tomorrow starts the last week of lectures. I'm getting a tutor for 191.104 and she is a demonstrator so hopefully that will help. My first exam (194101) is on 29.10. Got 2 assignments due on 22.10... so my life is pretty busy.

So I'm really trying to get my stuff together regarding study for exams, the 2 assignments I have due and my social life. Also I'm going to be making an appointment soon (maybe for next week) firstly with my doctor to see if I'm within normal ranges regarding my erratic sleeping (it's either too much or too little and I seem to fall asleep at inappropriate times like during lectures and quite often once I get home no matter how much sleep I had the night before), next with the contact with the College of Science regarding a tutor (this I'm actually planning to do next tomorrow or Friday). I'm not happy with my mark for my mid-semester test and since 194.101 is a prerequisite for a paper next year I really want to get on top of everything. I've made a little note book with important information in it that mum can quiz me on. I'm also looking at O.W.L.L. and their memory strategies. I think I might try the Roman Room technique. Also I'm going to start going to the extra help sessions that the stats people offer on a Friday afternoon. I don't "get" the whole 2nd half of the course which is bad thing.

This weekend Bex is having a cocktail party and I've also got Soccer prizegiving the same night so I'm going at 6 to prizegiving, then at 8-ish I'll drive from Massey to Bexs house and then get a taxi from her house to Tanias house party hard and then drive home before 9.30 the next morning! Phew!

God, I've even more respect for people who manage to get a University degree. It's such hard work! (and it's only going to get worse. Yay)

Yikes application forms for admission to second year medical laboratory science have arrived. I'm still a little uneasy about not being admitted mainly because my papers this semester aren't going so well. Especially Statistics and Mammalian Biology I really, really want to pass these papers but especially statistics because it's compulsory (what isn't in med lab?). Oh well, at least with statistics I know where to go and get help. Mammals I'm not so sure about - I might have a read of the manual or something. If it all turns to crap I'll do Nutrition.

Eugh trying to study the kidneys but printed notes they gives us have pictures in poor quality B&W which makes them hard to interpret.

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Wow so mammals marks and back and - for how well I thought that test went - I done pretty shite especially for how much work I put in. Im very annoyed apparently we get marks taken off if we spell something wrong. If that happens with me I'm going to be well fucked off.

I wish the holidays weren't over I'm not ready for this.

Oh yeah - lecturer decided not to show up today. This isn't good enough - Massey you are terriable for this! Get your stuff together!!

I had a momentary thought about going on exchange untill I read you need a B average. Yeah right. I study my ass off and can only ever manage a C. Sometimes it's enough to make me just want to give up.

HOLIDAYS!HOLIDAYS!HOLIDAYS!HOLIDAYS!HOLIDAYS!HOLIDAYS!HOLIDAYS!HOLIDAYS!

Right, now we've got that out of the way it's time for my semi-regular update on how uni is going. For lack of a better word it's f-a-n-t-a-s-t-i-c. Today we had an AIESEC OGX meeting with Kelly who is VP OGX at Victoria (AIESEC has been too cool for whole words since 1947), Marie who is VP OGX here at Massey, Me who isn't special enough to be a VP and on the EB, Jayme our EP who is going to India (yay we raised her today!!!), and apologies from Sarah who also isn't special enough to be VP. It was so awesome - I love hanging out with my homies from Vic. So that was cool after our meeting was done we went and had Indian (caus you know - I've been craving it since like last week) and we were just shooting the breeze. Seriously - if you're at Auckland, AUT, Waikato, Massey, Victoria, Cantebury or Otago University you should seriously consider joining not matter what degree you're doing. I'm almost sad the summer is coming - mainly cause I'm doing Chemistry in Living Systems over the summer extramurally. So you know - I get to set stuff on fire/blow it up/make alcohol in the shed.

Had my essentails of mammalian biology exam on Wednesday. It could have gone worse but I'm glad I put in all those hours studying but was recovering from a cold on that day so I think that may have impaired my preformance. I know more about cows than I've ever cared to know in my entire life.

Oh yes, hopefully next week I'm going to connect - via my own wireless device (because my computer is so ancient that it doesn't even take DDR2 RAM) - to the university network. Hopefully my (new) USB dongle should arrive tomorrow. Don't even ask about the hoopla I had to go through with the first one I brought. Grr!