Yep thats lectures over for (ANOTHER) year. Just got my 2 assignments to finish tomorrow to hand them in on Tuesday and then study!

I was flipping through my chemistry text book and then wondered if the neighbours are going to think I'm cooking meth in the garage when I do my chemistry experiments.

Finally get to do 200 level papers next year. 202.371 looks very interesting.

That is all I wish to say.

I'm so tired of people trying to set me up! I'm not interested. Ok? Is that alright with you? This applies mainly to Jessie who firstly thought I was sleeping around because I told her about the time I made a boy sleep on the couch when I stayed at his, then took the ad for a snuggle buddy on my facebook seriously (yeah... I also change my religion, material status, hometown and if I'm feeling adventerous - gender - randomly when ever I feel like a change) and so I rolled with it hyping up the so-called "snuggle buddy". Then I came clean and said that I didn't actually have one to which she promply offered to "set me up with one of the guys from the (Baptist Youth) hostel". Yeah... no thanks. Not interested in anyone does mean exactly that. There is not something "wrong" nor is it something "one of the boys can't fix" (that last one actually made my stomach churn. Gross). To be quite honest the thought of bumping uglies with anyone (male, female or someone who is other) now makes me want to hurl and indeed, the last 2 times someone kissed me has made me want to be physically ill. I don't berate you for thinking/talking about your girl/boyfriend/sex most of the time so don't berate me for not wanting that. My love life does get exceedenling complicated and you know what? I just can't be fucked with the shit. I'm so much better off mentally, physically and espeically emotionally without the complication of a lover. I feel very... liberated. Sorry boys and girls although I am still "mentally-attracted" to you a sexual relationship is just out of the equation. God if I have to put with 4 years of her trying to set me up (as we are both doing BMLS) I'm going to go bananas. The thing is though, is that I don't want to lash out at her (which I'm afraid of doing if I can't get her to understand how/why) because I do actually quite like her. She is very, very amusing and is going to make BMLS class of 2012 very interesting.

Holy wall of text batman! I'm sorry to your eyes for putting through my massive text-wall rant.

I just want so much more from life than partying/getting laid. Someone once told me that makes me a nana. Well if I want something more from life then I'm fine with calling mysef that. I just don't know where this meaning for life is supposed to come from. I don't think I'm having not-even-quarter-life-crisis because I've felt this way since I was at least 16. Does it come from experience? Because I've a lot of friends and family I love dearly and have had AMAZING experiences with, but in the end we're going to die and none of it is going to matter once we do. I guess the question I'm trying to ask is - where is the meaning for this life that matters in the next?

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University is going well, tomorrow starts the last week of lectures. I'm getting a tutor for 191.104 and she is a demonstrator so hopefully that will help. My first exam (194101) is on 29.10. Got 2 assignments due on 22.10... so my life is pretty busy.

So I'm really trying to get my stuff together regarding study for exams, the 2 assignments I have due and my social life. Also I'm going to be making an appointment soon (maybe for next week) firstly with my doctor to see if I'm within normal ranges regarding my erratic sleeping (it's either too much or too little and I seem to fall asleep at inappropriate times like during lectures and quite often once I get home no matter how much sleep I had the night before), next with the contact with the College of Science regarding a tutor (this I'm actually planning to do next tomorrow or Friday). I'm not happy with my mark for my mid-semester test and since 194.101 is a prerequisite for a paper next year I really want to get on top of everything. I've made a little note book with important information in it that mum can quiz me on. I'm also looking at O.W.L.L. and their memory strategies. I think I might try the Roman Room technique. Also I'm going to start going to the extra help sessions that the stats people offer on a Friday afternoon. I don't "get" the whole 2nd half of the course which is bad thing.

This weekend Bex is having a cocktail party and I've also got Soccer prizegiving the same night so I'm going at 6 to prizegiving, then at 8-ish I'll drive from Massey to Bexs house and then get a taxi from her house to Tanias house party hard and then drive home before 9.30 the next morning! Phew!

God, I've even more respect for people who manage to get a University degree. It's such hard work! (and it's only going to get worse. Yay)

Yikes application forms for admission to second year medical laboratory science have arrived. I'm still a little uneasy about not being admitted mainly because my papers this semester aren't going so well. Especially Statistics and Mammalian Biology I really, really want to pass these papers but especially statistics because it's compulsory (what isn't in med lab?). Oh well, at least with statistics I know where to go and get help. Mammals I'm not so sure about - I might have a read of the manual or something. If it all turns to crap I'll do Nutrition.

Eugh trying to study the kidneys but printed notes they gives us have pictures in poor quality B&W which makes them hard to interpret.

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Wow so mammals marks and back and - for how well I thought that test went - I done pretty shite especially for how much work I put in. Im very annoyed apparently we get marks taken off if we spell something wrong. If that happens with me I'm going to be well fucked off.

I wish the holidays weren't over I'm not ready for this.

Oh yeah - lecturer decided not to show up today. This isn't good enough - Massey you are terriable for this! Get your stuff together!!

I had a momentary thought about going on exchange untill I read you need a B average. Yeah right. I study my ass off and can only ever manage a C. Sometimes it's enough to make me just want to give up.

HOLIDAYS!HOLIDAYS!HOLIDAYS!HOLIDAYS!HOLIDAYS!HOLIDAYS!HOLIDAYS!HOLIDAYS!

Right, now we've got that out of the way it's time for my semi-regular update on how uni is going. For lack of a better word it's f-a-n-t-a-s-t-i-c. Today we had an AIESEC OGX meeting with Kelly who is VP OGX at Victoria (AIESEC has been too cool for whole words since 1947), Marie who is VP OGX here at Massey, Me who isn't special enough to be a VP and on the EB, Jayme our EP who is going to India (yay we raised her today!!!), and apologies from Sarah who also isn't special enough to be VP. It was so awesome - I love hanging out with my homies from Vic. So that was cool after our meeting was done we went and had Indian (caus you know - I've been craving it since like last week) and we were just shooting the breeze. Seriously - if you're at Auckland, AUT, Waikato, Massey, Victoria, Cantebury or Otago University you should seriously consider joining not matter what degree you're doing. I'm almost sad the summer is coming - mainly cause I'm doing Chemistry in Living Systems over the summer extramurally. So you know - I get to set stuff on fire/blow it up/make alcohol in the shed.

Had my essentails of mammalian biology exam on Wednesday. It could have gone worse but I'm glad I put in all those hours studying but was recovering from a cold on that day so I think that may have impaired my preformance. I know more about cows than I've ever cared to know in my entire life.

Oh yes, hopefully next week I'm going to connect - via my own wireless device (because my computer is so ancient that it doesn't even take DDR2 RAM) - to the university network. Hopefully my (new) USB dongle should arrive tomorrow. Don't even ask about the hoopla I had to go through with the first one I brought. Grr!

I really couldn't have afforded to go to RTS really. I should have stayed in Palmy and finished my Stats assignment and then started my book review. I really need to learn how to plan my time better. It's due tomorrow and I'm almost done but still, I wanted to be finished last week. I hate the fact that minitab is only avialiable in SLB2! Everyone and their mum is here during the day.

Because I hate surprises I'm planning the way I'm going to jiggle my papers next year and also looking the the course outlines and found out that 162.384 has an ORAL exam, oh boy am I not going to be looking foreward to that! The other thing I've noticed is that IT NEVER VARIES IN HOW WE ARE ASSESSED! after 4 years of a 10% mid semester exam, 60% final exam, and 20% practical exam I'm going to be so bored. Seriosuly Massey! Can't you mix it up a bit? Just a bit? Maybe throw an assignment or something? I don't know. At least thats one thing UCOL has on Massey - no fracking exams! Although we did get these MASSIVE assignments.

Although when I was looking at the papers for 3rd year and 202.385 and 202.384 aren't being offered in 2010 which I don't understand because they're COMPULSORY. However, the 2010 information for BMLS isn't on the website so maybe they're changing a few of the papers. I don't know why because those papers are histology and cytology something I thought would be quite important to someone in a medical labortatory.

By the way - A/Prof Kevin Pedley has the most motonous voice ever in the world. Today he finally lulled me to sleep. Well off to my stats tutorial lets hope the tutor actually shows up this week.

If you were living with someone and they moved but you still had their cell number and they got important mail at their old address would you text them and tell them they had mail and ask for a forewarding address? I would but what would you do?

Also firefox has been having a lot of issues lately, I may download it again and see how that goes.

Uni is going swell though! I'm doing 146.102 Endangered Cultures which I find a tad odd. I though Biostats would be hard but it really isn't - at least not yet. Mammailan Biology I'm finding almost as usless as Biology of Animals. It's all about sheep, or cows. Although I guess if I had wanted to stick with the human things I would have stayed in Dunedin, although in saying that, BMLS at Otago is very VERY comptetative. I had this dream the other night where I didn't get into 2nd year because I failed CommSci (I seriously hate that paper though). Geri was telling me though that of the 31 people who applied last year, 31 got in and some failed a couple of papers.

Oh yes that toothache I was telling you that was keeping me awake? It's cause was a rotten top left wisdom tooth and the bottom left wisdom tooth that didn't have any room to grow. The nice dentist man took them out for $250, not as much as I thought it would be. Mum only got one of her teeth removed for $350.

I haven't had any e-mail in 2 days. Leave a comment so I can get some mail. Please?

Yay new semester! I'm excited to be back at Massey, even if I'm really tired because of this toothache is keeping me awake at night. I'm only doing 3 papers this semester and 1 of them is internally assessed so that means only 2 exams for me! Although it looks like I've been streamed into the Thurs 6-9pm lab for Mammalian Biology so I will have to change that quick smart. I'm going to change to the Weds 2-5pm lab because it doesn't matter if I'm late out because I have to stay for football practise anyways.

Oh yeah my results!
Communication in the Science E (no surprises there)
Introductory Chemistry B-
Biology of Cells C+
Biology of Animals C