I got 64% (16/25) and I'm really annoyed with myself. Thats only about a C+. I'm aiming to do WAY better on my CELS test this weekend.

Class average? 74%

And now this from Catherine Tate, just for shits and giggles!
"... she gets that he's an alien. She knows she has 2 hearts. Don't want to know what else he's doubled up on... anywhere else"
~ On speaking about her new part on Dr. Who her character will fall for the doctor

Because I am a good student, I am in my favourite C.A.L studying chemistry of all gods-forsaken things on this earth. There is something that I'm have a bit of issues with (when am I not when it comes to chemistry?!) so I'm only wileyPLUS doing some exercises and seeing if I can try to get my head around this thing they call rate law. I'm getting quite serious about studyng and I found this interesting method of studing, which I am going to try out.

In other news, I passed the HSFY english diagnostic which means I don't have to do ENGL126 and I am instead going to take RELS101 a rather interesting paper I think. I was thinking about doing a Politics one, but, I just so happen to be interested in the history of religion and how those belifes came about.

I really should go to my 8am HUBS lectures on a thurs/friday... it's getting really interesting now! Last week we were learning about the nervous system and how an electrial impulse is transmitted down an axon and how the neurotransmitters work in a synapse.

It is almost the holidays.

CELS191 terms test on Saturday! At least I know where the HELL i'm supposed to be going. Not some weird place by the hospital. (My HUBS terms test was in Barnett lecture theature which is IN dunedin public hospital) it's real odd. Anyways, this test is in Castle 2, which I incidentaly have HUBS 3 days a week so I don't have to look around for it before hand.

Wish me luck?

I've just finished my first aid course this weekend. Phase 1 of the application to medical school is complete. Cost? $160. The next phase is regeristering for the UMAT (undergraduate medical admissions test) = $160AUD. Phase 3 involves needles, hence why it is stage 3 it involves a serilogical test. Cost? approx. $100. Total cost before I even know if I'm accepted? $340. Somehow that sounds like an ad for mastercard...

I'm so mega tired. CELS191 exam next weekend and physics next wedensday...

I might ring my mum today. Was Joshua's 5th birthday on Thursday.

Stolen from jevon
You can only use ONE word. The first word that comes to your mind. Don't think this through. Just do it!

1- Where is your cell phone?
bag

2- Your hair?
soft

3- Work?
never

4- Your father?
drunk

5- your favourite thing?
hugs

6- your dream last night?
noexistant

7- your favourite drink?
sweet

8- your dream car?
black

9- The room you are in?
Richardson

10- your fears?
real

11- What do you want to be in 10 years?
Canda

12- Who did you hang out with last night?
Flat

13- What you are not good at?
Hope

14- Muffin?
Chocolate

15- One of your wish list items?
Love

16- Where did you grow up?
Remote

17- Last thing you did?
CPR

18- What are you wearing?
Shoes

19- What aren't you wearing?
Necklace

20- Your pets?
cat

21- your computer?
universitys

22- Your life?
unworthy

23- Your mood?
Tired

24- Missing?
heart

25- what are you thinking about right now?
boy

26- Your car?
dangerous

27- Your summer?
sad

28- your relationship status?
exitinct

29- your favourite colour?
Mixed

30- When was the last time you laughed with meaning?
Yesterday

31- last time you cried?
girlfriend

32- school?
forgetable

33- least favourite weather?
hot

34- soup?
water

35- movie?
music

FUCK MY LIFE.

There is just so much stuff going on at the moment, some of it I can't even get my head past. Today I was sitting in phsi191 (bored as hell btw) and I didn't hear most of that lecture because I was so preoccupied. My life is just so... complicated!

I was also thinking today about how my mum laughted when I told her I wanted to be a doctor. Honestly, LAUGHED down the phone at me. She said I'd make a terriable doctor because I hate people and that I don't have the empathy. Sometimes I wish that she'd just take a really good look at me and see me for who I know I am, instead of what she wants/thinks. She also said that she'd rather see me a scientist *sigh* anyways I was thinking about that today and how she was wrong, I just expect high standards from the people that I know/love and I get annoyed when they don't meet them.

My first offical university test was on Saturday and it was good! Not as hard as I'm used to. I'm expecting at least a pass. However, the HUBS questions are all really odd! Like, the first question was on The Human Tissues Act 1964. It's relevant because we are the only 1st years in the whole university that are allowed access to REAL human body parts and to the anatomy museam, but it was a curly question! To me that test seemed REALLY basic, like none of the complexity that we are learning about. I think it should have been longer with harder questions. I felt like all my study was for nothing. Hahaha who says that.

Well should get back to my chemistry study. I'm so tired.

Now as I sit here in Richardson CAL I feel as if my dreams of being a doctor are slowly but surely running away. I can see it now several meters in front of me, laughing. I say this because I had my physics lab last week and what a fucking pain in the ass that was. At the end of our "experiment" we were given a sheet of questions to answer. I couldn't even answer the first one and I am just getting so frustrated because I'm just not getting it! The same is true of Chemistry and the labs in that class. The stupid fucking test that we have to sit and the end of our labs is worth 15% of our final mark. And of course if you don't really get it (like I don't really get it) you don't really have a chance to cement it in your mind. Last lab, I got 2 out of 6 questions. Thats not even a bloody pass!!!

It's just annoying. I feel like it's going in one ear and out the other and I'm not exactly sure what to do about it. I study most nights for 4 hours, I read the textbook and do the questions but it still dosn't help. CELS and HUBS on the other hand are fine! I'm loving it! I think the moment you start mentioning numbers and formulae and rearraging and what not I freak out. Like, not even a little freak out but a massive panic attack. It also dosn't help not having the internet at our house - yet. Because I need both access to blackboard and my textbooks simultaneously. I am NOT lugging my 4 textbooks to University. It's too far and they are way to heavy. Getting them home from the University Bookshop was mission enough and I almost broke my back doing so.

Fuck my life

I am trying my damnest to get into Medical School. Last night I spent from approximately 8pm till 1.30am studying. This includes readings before lectures (damn does HUBS today have a lot of small and very spread out PARAGRAPHS to read) anyways. NOT MANY PEOPLE BELIEVE HOW DEDICATED I AM!!!!! If I just lax off and in the end I don't get into medical school I will always be wonder what would I have done if I had spent all that (wasted) time studying like I am now. My flatmates all leave me alone when I'm sitting at the table with my (4) textbooks out furiously re-writing notes and doing questions and saying random stuff they won't understand out loud. I'm inherenitly a kinthestic leaner followed by auditory and I was thinking for HUBS that maybe I should make myself a small model of the skeleton so that I can put all the bones together while saying them out loud.

But don't worry I do take small breaks every 20mins or so. I think... sometimes 2hours goes by so quick when you're having fun

In the end when I am Dr. T Mitchell then and only then can I relax. I need a B minimum you know... but I'm aiming for an A. I can understand what Jevon says about once it's all said and done getting the respect of fellow peers.

Oh yeah Chris, the flatmate I never see is moving out. I think I must have seen him about 5 times in the course of 3 months. Thats less than once a week. I want another boy flatmate, just so then Cam won't feel so out numbered.

I've joined karate. Okinawan Goju-Ryu Karate-do to be presice. I've just started learning the first kata called Gekisai Dai Ichi which is needed for my first belt (yay white hehe) it so much fun I'm really enjoying it.

I had my first lab on Wedensday it was awesome. They devided the class in half, so our half first went to these machines which measured the electrical signal in your muscles when you moved them. After we had done that we then went to study the bones and anatomical directions and anatomical movements. One of the most evil things in the world.

At this moment, I'm listning to a lecture I heard on friday that I had from an interested fellow in CELS191. He didn't realise he was being podcasted so there is a little bit of "wooops I'm being podcasted" ahaha yeah it was quite funny.

Lectures start on monday and I couldn't be more excited! The only thing that sucks about my timetable is that I have PHYSICS lab from 5-8pm on a Wednesday. I need to attend every lab in order to get enough terms to sit my final exams or something like that. I'm not actually sure what a term is... I shall check it out. One thing that I'm annoyed about is having to buy my own labcoat. $35 thank you very much, and before my first HUBS lab on Weds. I suppose at least no one else is going to use the only size 4 lab coat (like what happened at UCOL) and I get stuck with a giant size 12 which came down to my feet and I had to roll the sleeves about 8times just so I could use my hands...

So my timetable is thus:
Monday
11am-Midday CELS191
1pm-2pm PHYS191
5pm-6pm HUBS191
2pm-5pm every 2nd Monday CHEM191 lab

Tuesday
11am - Midday CELS191
1pm-2pm PHYS191
5pm-6pm CHEM191
2pm-5pm every 2nd tuesday CELS191 lab

Wednesday
9am-10pm CHEM191
1pm-2pm HUBS191
2pm-5pm every 2nd Wednesday HUBS191 lab
5pm-8pm every other Wednesday PHYS191 lab

Thursday
8am-9am HUBS191
11am-Midday CELS191
1pm-2pm PHYS191
5pm-6pm CHEM191

Friday
Same as Thursday